Yup, i just wrote "idk"... get over it.
Just a little bit of an update. A couple weeks ago, my dad told us his doctors found a tumor on his pancreas that has grown pretty rapidly. It had shrunk with the chemo & wasn't there for his surgeries at the end of October. But now, I guess, it's back. So he's going in Thursday for his third & hopefully final surgery. I'm so tired of this, I can't imagine what he must be feeling. I've said it before, he's a fighter & he'll get through it. He has to.
I've felt so not here lately. I'm not sure why. I'm sure it has to do with the stress. I honestly am thankful I have a job right now, but I feel like I'm loosing part of me. I hate not being challenged, as much as NEI was just about the craziest place anyone could work, I miss it a lot. I miss being creative.
On the other hand I'm so glad I left. I don't know if I could handle being in NY again while my dad was going through this. I know I made the right choice, I just need to keep telling myself that.
I apologize for anyone reading this right now. I just feel like I need to get this out. I'm so tired & feel like balling for a while...
Good night!
PS- Last "sorry for myself" blog post! Promise.
